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I have been overweight most of my life.
I’m trying to be a good mom and wife.
But fear keeps getting in my way,
so I continue to battle my weight everyday.

If I lose my weight what will people say?
Will they still talk to me and treat me the same way?
Will I lose the friends that I used to eat with?
Will they be jealous because I am fit?

I heard once your thin
people start to notice more and more
My question is what was wrong with me before?

Oh yeah I have a pretty face
and a personality to match
But now my whole package
You think is a catch?

Will I be able to maintain all the weight that I have lost?
Will losing my weight be worth the cost?
The cost of having to do all the things that I never had to do before?
I can’t hide behind my weight working out and eating right seems like such a chore.

To answer the question is it worth it?
Yes it is I’ll say it quick.
No matter it I’m treated differently by friends or my fam
I’ll do it over and over again

I want my kids to grow up with their mom
I want them to think that I’m the bomb
It does not matter about the world
It’s all about my little boy and girl

To be successful is a big fear
But my mom died at age 53, she was a dear
She was obese and not fit at all
and now she’s missing seeing her grandkids grow up tall

So all the fears I have will be put aside
So I can live life to the fullest with my kids
It will be an awesome ride.

* the first few stanzas definitely remind me of myself (staceyadamz)
**originally posted on http://run4change.wordpress.com/2009/03/13/cool-poem-about-fear-and-being-over-weight/

Brains Versus Beauty

**poem originally posted on Jadestone Pound and can be found on http://allpoetry.com/poem/2112929**

I'm just a punch line, To your ugly fat girl jokes. You point and laugh when I walk by. I just point and laugh back at you. Your shallow foolishness, Makes you look so funny. I have something you'll never have. Are you jealous? I bet you are. That's why you need, To ridicule me, Whenever I enter your field of vision. You may have the socially accepted looks honey, But I have the brain. While you're lying on your back, Trying to get ahead, I've already passed you by.

RAW, FAT AND EXPOSED : BY LAWRECE S. BRADY

Once upon a time, not long ago

I was unhappy with myself,

but smiled, so

my inner feelings wouldn't show,

Yes,

a little while ago,

and I can vividly recal when,

I'd do anything,

just

anything..

to make myself thin..

and it would all be in vain,

cause what i lost,

i'd soon gain

again..

stepping on the scale would sadden me,

wreck my brain,

thinking about

how to GET SKINNY

almost drove me insane...

starvation didnt work,

it worked against me,

and it didnt help

that it seemed that

all the

"swagged out"

dudes looked past me,

I was too big..

no, they didn't pick me,

missed me,

over looked me,

friended me,

fat me..

It's me,

it's gotta be,

I said as i stood on the scale and saw

3...

hundred twenty four,

I lost,

being fat had won so long

I'd lost score,

no,

I lost myself...

hated myself,

How could I do this to myself,

so fat,

too fat..

I couldnt even wear a belt..

I gave up,

lost all hope,

people saw a smile,

but inside,

i showed me no love,

because,

i

hated my size,

and then,

one day..

a sudden surprize..

after refusing the scale

I stepped on

and discovered

I was not such a beach whale..

self described myself as this

cause nobody else felt like this

about me..

stepped on the scale and it said

2-9-3...

yay me!!!

new me..

i saw a new girl in the mirror

for the first time...

I saw me,

and not the size of my thick thighs..

I embrace my size,

hugged my rolls,

saw that I was more than

my size,

and worth my weight in gold..

so a couple months passed,

and my confidence grew,

I decided, YOU KNOW WHAT, I DO LOVE YOU,

and what did this chubby chick do?

I took a step that was bold,

swallowed my fear,

and pointed my toes,

I grabbed a camera,

and shed all my clothes..

and stood there

raw

exposed..

naked..

staring..

looking...

accepting...

me, for who I am,

and noticing for the first time,

just how sexy I am......

LOVE YOURSELF, FOR WHATEVER AND WHOMEVER YOU ARE, NEVER LET SOMEONE DEFINE WHO YOU THINK YOU ARE...